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[rhainus]

 ...hmm... I've certainly disappeared for awhile, didn't I? *sigh* Well, I guess the first thing I should say is: I'm back. : ) The second would be the reason for my sudden return. I noticed, over the time I was out, that I certainly like to write and this journal seems like a nice way to do it. Especially when I re-read everything I wrote and remembered. It give me a certain feeling of accomplishment. Of course it also gave me the need to bang my head against the wall because of how depressed I had been. *bangs head against wall* God, I sounded like an emo!!! I feel embarrassed...

Well, yesterday, it was my birthday and I had an awesome day. : ) And one of this things I found out is that, we don't need to get presents to have fun in our birthday. As far as I remember, this has been my favorite birthday ever and it was also the only one where I didn't receive one single gift. My parents wanted to give me stuff but I told them I didn't want anything. One thing I didn't like was the way my brother treated them. We are kind of fighting each other now but, on my own birthday, he didn't even wish me a happy anniversary. For that reason, because I'm still human, I decided that, in his next birthday, I will ignore him completely. Pretty much like he did with me. Even if we are in good terms. I'll make him pay for what he did to me. I'm a very resentful person, after all.

Also, I decided to post my first original story for the first time. I hope people read it and review it. I'll post it here, someday. When I'm not too lazy. xP

EDIT: Lol, I just found out that this is my first entry for this year. xP 

Comments

[zaifie]

Joana!! I missed you :(

We both went away DW for a while, it seems. Belated happy birthday too! ;A; I'm so late. I'm sorry I wasn't able to finish writing you anything for Christmas or your birthday :(

Still, I hope you're doing well, and that you and your brother are on better terms. Will check out your story when I get the time :)

[rhainus]

Fia!!! I also missed you so much!~

So I noticed moments after leaving. I certainly had my hands full so I went away. Thanks and don't worry about it. I also wanted to write you something but I had no idea what!!! *bangs head against wall* Sorry about that...

Well, me and my brother are as in good terms as we were a week ago (in other words, we are not). But I'm not even going to bother because I know how it's going to be. he starts speaking with me, I speak back to him, blah blah, and then he thinks I have forgiven him for what he did. I'm not even angry at him for the reason we actually got angry. I am angry because of what he did to me in my birthday. He didn't even wish me a good day. Fuck him, that's what I wanted to say to him. But I'm over it. His next birthday, I am going to be a bitch. *grins evilly*

On the other hand, how are you? It's been such awhile and I haven't check out your new posts and everything. Of course, I will do that and I will review it as it should be. : ) Be tuned for my next review! : )

[zaifie]

Aside from being so pressured about college things, I'm fine. I feel so old now that it's my last summer as a high schooler! ;A;

Most of my posts are original works and stuff nowadays. I miss writing fics. I look forward to your reviews :D I tried looking for your story by the way :o Did you post it on FF? I couldn't find it.

[rhainus]

Oh! College? I'm not sure if I should call you lucky because, from my point of view, it's actually very unlucky. I am having enough trouble with high school and I still don«t know what to do with my career. *sigh* Good luck for you though.

Summer? You're lucky! I only have one more month of school before Summer's here though. : )

I didn't. I still haven't posted it anywhere (mostly because I only have one chapter ready and so many (way too many) extras to place somewhere on the original plot. *sigh* I should start writing the next one soon enough. And I'll post it someday. Probably when I finish the second chapter, I'll post the first one here. As for fics, I wrote one about Star Driver (I still love the anime) but I didn't post it. : ) I have written lots and lost but I never post. xP Or, when I post, I eventually take it off due to lack of activity. I am that type of a person. : )

Have you thought about writing a novel? Maybe just for fun? I have to admit that it's really really fun to do. I completely advise you to do it though, before posting (because you are probably going to get busier with college stuff, maybe post it here where you won«'t have the usual 'oh my god, it's been xxx days. when are you going to post?' kinds of comments. If anything, words of encouragement and not the usual non-creative type of 'good chapter' reviews. Geez, why people can't write something more creative? I usually start rambling (like right now) and my review turns into a conversation with the other person xP Poor of those guys...

[zaifie]

We're in the same boat, then. Although I'll have to make my mind up before this month ends *cries* Good luck, indeed. Seems I'll be needing a lot of it.

Not really, I've been swamped with review classes. Good news is that I might go to Japan next week for our school's exchange student program! :D Only for ten days, but still.

Ooh, I used to be like that before, and then I went through this really long period of not writing anything and deleting my old works. Hopefully you won't go through that stage. Anyway, I can understand your reservations of posting them online. One thing I realized when I got the guts to post my works though, it's that no matter how crappy your work may be at the start, there'll always be those who will give you reviews that'll never fail to make your heart flutter.

Anyway, haha, yeah I have, but I've never had the guts to go through with it completely. Oh gosh, you're right. I probably should make one soon if I ever want to actually finish, but I really don't have that kind of dedication OTL And yeah, I totally get what you mean. Although it's fun when reviews turn into conversations :))

[rhainus]

Yes we are but you have less time than I do. Poor you. Then again, I'm almost 100% sure I'll be in your shoes two years from now. *sigh* I don't want to think about it...

Oh!!! LUCKY!~ I wish I could go there!!!~ Do you mind telling me when you go? I'm going to miss so much I will barely take it but I'll cheer you up from here!!!

Oh... I see. The problem is that no one reviews it... *sigh* I kind of get depressed over it but I simply brushed it aside.

Well, you just need to find a subject you are really interested in. I assure you that you won't want to do anything else than write, write and write (except if you find something else more interested, then you lose the interest for the sotry and it starts gathering dust in your computer ...) Yeah, I love it!!! : ) Then you start getting to know the author and it helps a lot. : )

[zaifie]

I didn't want to think about it either, but it might help you if you start narrowing down your choices early. I know I wish I did. *rueful grin*

I'm not quite sure yet, since I haven't contacted the school in a while but I'll be sure to tell you as soon as I'm sure of the date!! Hopefully I'll have internet when I go there, so we can chat while I'm there!

Aww, don't be too let down. Until now, no one's ever reviewed the first fic I ever posted online. It's sad, but I've learned to deal with it. I'm just happy that my other works actually got reviewed! Having friends who know you write is a surefire way of getting reviews, and if it's a fanfic for a popular fandom it has a high chance of getting reviews too. The second one isn't a guarantee, but it's still a greater chance than if it were a fic for an obscure fandom or if it was an original work.

I feel so drained by writing nowadays. It's really difficult to get inspiration I guess.

[rhainus]

Well, my problem isn't choices but my future... What I really wanted to follow is Digital Art but I know I won't get a job with that kind of stuff. I then decided to try for Medicine because I really love the human body but then I know it's a dream ~WAY~ out of my league so I've given up. I'll try and search for something that involves Biology. Now that I'm learning more stuff, I'm actually really interested in Plants and Animals but, again, what can I do with that? My main fear is going to college and then not get any job... *sigh* This is a pretty hard and I will hate feeling regrets later, living with my mistakes... *sigh* Poor you, I hope that time will never come to me... But I know it will... For the mean time, I'll enjoy my remaining time. : )

I'll be cheering for you then. : ) And be waiting. I hope you have internet so you can tell me everything about there *grin* Of course, we'll talk as normally but I'm really curious too. *grin*

Well, I've been lucky enough. The first time I posted something, it was a multi-chapter story and I got lots of reviews from chapter to chapter. Then, school started getting in my way and I completely stopped writing. When I checked my mail, I had some reviews telling me to continue, and I did. But then I didn't get even one review, even though people were reading it, so I kind of gave up. *sigh* After that, I started posting and deleting my stories, with or without reviews. *sigh* I'm kind of weak in that way. : )

Well, good luck and I hope to see some more stuff from you someday soon. : ) Preferably, a novel! *grin grin*